Screened to Kenya

[z_hikaru]

I think we should talk.

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[z_hikaru]

You were always a special case. It didn’t mean I ever understood you.

[oshitari_kenya]

I'm sorry, Hikaru.

...If it's too weird to hang out with me now, I understand...

[z_hikaru]

I don't want to lose you.

[oshitari_kenya]

I don't want to lose you either...

[z_hikaru]

...I'm not the person you think I am. I fucked Marui, for one. And you've seen my track record for dating.

[oshitari_kenya]

...

I see. Um...don't worry, yeah? You're still my friend. I don't mind who you sleep with, and those guys were all idiots.

So am I, so you're dodging a huge bullet, I promise! I'll get over you, and we'll still be friends!

[z_hikaru]

You're too good for me, is the real problem. I apparently only date losers who try to hit or cheat on me.

I don't know what to do with someone who's good. Maybe I'm the problem.

[oshitari_kenya]

No way. I'm not good enough for you! You're so handsome and smart and I'm just...

apparently a dummy who can't keep his mouth shut.

The problem isn't you, Hikaru. You're great. Please don't be so down on yourself. I'm sorry I put you in such a tight spot.

[z_hikaru]

You didn’t put me in a tight spot. I did it to myself. I shouldn't have made you pose for photos with me, and I shouldn't have taken it as far as I did.

I'm the one who messed up.

[oshitari_kenya]

It's okay. I wanted to help. I shouldn't have said anything. I wasn't thinking.

[z_hikaru]

I took advantage of your feelings. I'm sorry.

[oshitari_kenya]

You didn't know. It's okay. I forgive you. Please don't be sad.

[z_hikaru]

Stop pretending things are fine.

[oshitari_kenya]

I'm not pretending! I'm not mad!

[z_hikaru]

Yeah, but nothing's okay right now.

Why did you have to say you like me now? I'm all fucked up now.

[oshitari_kenya]

...I'm sorry.

I don't know how to fix it.

Maybe we shouldn't hang out anymore...

[z_hikaru]

I'm sorry.

[oshitari_kenya]

No, I'm the one that should be sorry. And it's not like I can ask you to just forget you heard me say anything...

[z_hikaru]

...I've liked you a really long time. I should be happy right now.

I guess I'm more fucked up than I'd realized.

[oshitari_kenya]

Well...you said yourself you were done dating. And you might feel pressured to make me happy because we're friends...but I promise you, I never want to force you into liking me back.

And maybe with time, I can get over you. Maybe it's just the newness of having you back in person that made the feelings pop back up.

[z_hikaru]

Stop assuming I'm being forced to do anything. I've liked you for a long time, even without knowing how you felt.

[oshitari_kenya]

...are you saying you still like me, Hikaru?

[z_hikaru]

That's exactly what I was saying.

So I should be happy right now, right?

[oshitari_kenya]

...You could have found out in a better way. It's okay to not be completely happy...and it's okay to be overwhelmed, especially considering your bad break up.

[z_hikaru]

I wish you'd developed a crush on someone better for you.

[oshitari_kenya]

Like who?

I'm not really the catch you seem to think I am.

[z_hikaru]

You're definitely a catch, Kenya-san. You're the nicest guy I know.

You deserve better than some guy with a shitty track record and zero social skills.

[oshitari_kenya]

But I don't want something "better".

I like you, Hikaru.

I like your music, and I like your dry humor, and I like when your ears turn red.

[z_hikaru]

You have bad taste.

...I want a hug.

[oshitari_kenya]

You still here?

[z_hikaru]

I haven't left just yet.

[oshitari_kenya]

Then one hug coming up!

[z_hikaru]

...Thanks.

[oshitari_kenya]

<3